The love she wants.

A girl will never tell you straight what she wants. She gives hints, and she waits for you to get it.
She will wait and wait and wait and wait, till she's tired she will stop and leave. Cause when you really love her, you care and you will get her hints. If you don't, you don't love her. When you don't love her, then why should she stay?

Hope.

Silly I know.

But still, I want this 11 wishes. :)


I wish,
1. He love me more each and everyday like how I do :)
2. He can solve all his problems
3. He can be happier happier happier and happier :)
4. Those that he love to be happy and healthy, especially his grandma
5.He is The One :)
6.Those that I love to be happy and healthy
7. I can learn how to trust, and not be so paranoid
8. To know what I really want
9. To have enough money to tour around this globe with him
10. To be happier :)
11. All those 10 wishes above can really come true :)

I love Tan Wei Ming!!

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Everything shall be forgotten.
Everything will be back to normal.
I'd be fine.

Ego or Friend?

You want to be nice to people, you know you did them wrong, but your ego held you back. You don't apologize when you're wrong.
You help your friends, but you wanted something in return. That's not very nice of you.
Your requests are sometimes unreasonable, yet you didn't realize.
You're nice yet nasty.
You made me feel like a friend for your convenient.
You made people feel guilty for not helping you.
We ain't angel, wait till our tolerance reached it limit, we will leave you.

Friends ain't tool, spouse ain't fool.

The past shall past.

Who doesn't have a past? If you can only remember how bad that person is in the past, you can never notice how good that person have become. I have a past, I'm ugly back then. If it's not because I've been ugly, how would I know I can be as beautiful as now? I reminisce my past, adore my present, dream of my future.

Life doesn't stop.

You did things that hurts me you'll never know. What you will know is, I will gradually leave you. And you will think I have changed. I have left for the better. The truth is, I wanna be fair to my heart. To heal the wounds you left me with.

Happy Father's day.

2 days ago was Father's day. I believe there wouldn't be another guy in this world that will love me more than he does. Papa was like every other man, he does not know how to express his love through words. We don't show love, we put them in heart. Things that papa had done for me is uncountable. And I know, even if the whole world leave me, he will still be there for me. No matter how unreasonable I am he will still love me. Because he is my papa and not anyone else. :) I know I won't say this to him in face, but.. Papa, I love you! ♥

very sad...

nothing seems to went smoothly.. i'm like making mistake every here and there, ruining my life. i really dont know what to do. i cant handle it. what should i do.......

- The End -

It's tiring to always be the one taking initiative, being rejected again and again. When I gets sick and tired of it. That's when I will see it as pointless, I will give up.

I always give you my attention. I always take initiative. I always got reject by you but I still walk back. I always care and I show it. Because you are important to me. But you don't seem to appreciate it. you took it for granted.. Now I'm sick and tired of it. I've see it as pointless.
 I heard that the best way to gets someone's attention is to not give them yours. Now it's your turn to give me your attention, take the initiative, get rejections from me and still walks back to me. But you didn't. You just don't care. So I don't see why should I give a damn.

Being who you are.

Being proud enough to show off your true self is not shameless, it's called confidence.
It is to be called shameful to hide your true self from the others. So people, have you been yourself today?

Reality.

Define reality. Are things we see real? Are things we believe real? Who can really say that they are real? No one can have the true definition of reality. We can only keep questioning it. In the end, it's what we believe in make us think that it is as it is; reality.

bordered love aren't called love.

If you really love someone there shouldn't be any borders. Nothing should stop you. This is you life. If you don't do the thing you love, be with the one you love. No one else can. Why bother about what others think when this is your life. Being happy or sad lies within you, not them.

Things that never exist.

This world is big. Just because you haven't met someone better doesn't mean there isn't. Just because no one love you, doesn't mean there wouldn't be. The one you think you really love might not be the one you have love the most. Just because you didn't know, doesn't mean there isn't. There are better things for you to discover. So get over it and move on. :)

fall

You make me fall for you again when I was about to give up.
You're indeed a bastard.

Things to do.

- I have to do something between us. talk it out.
- I have to pack my room.
- I have to schedule myself.
- I have to find a job.
- I have to have some thoughts.
- most importantly, I need to do FDS now.

Goals.

- I'm so gonna slim down
- I'm so gonna take the plane
- I'm so gonna do something I had never done before
- I'm so gonna pick up new languages
- I'm so gonna meet all kind of weird people and make friend with them
- I'm so gonna learn new things like, scuba diving
- I'm so gonna become someone worth loving
- I'm so gonna find someone worth loving and love him/her like no tomorrow
- I'm so gonna change
- I'm so gonna reach for the turning point of my life


So watch me, fuckers!!

smile. :)

I always wear a smile on my face. As long as i can. Cause i don't know when my smile will brightens up some one's day. When I'm sad, I'll try to smile. Not because I'm crazy, but because I know being grumpy does no help to solving any problem whereas deteriorate it. So I'll smile. :) Smile is really a very magical thing. It create wonders you won't know. Just by smiling to a stranger you may have just made his/her day. So people, SMILE. :)

Liar Bitch.

Seriously I don't know why should you lie when you can't bluff me forever?
Please lie to me only when you're confident enough that you can keep it from me forever.

admire like crush love?

Love is like a guessing game. When you win, you'll win everything. But when you lose, you'd be left nothing.
I will always place my bet carefully. I'm sure this time round is not love. It's just somewhere between admire crush and like. So, it's ok. It's ok to lose.

sick.

Not feeling very well. Thanks for your concern. But I still feel that you're faking it.

1st step out.

If The World is a book and without travelling you've just flipped a page.


Seriously I think I should, and probably everyone else should, travel around and take a good look at the world we are living at. Things would be so much different if everyone of us just care a little bit more. I really wanna travel one round or probably a few rounds around this globe. It will really broaden my mindset and change the way I view things. I will learn lots of life lesson. I truly need to take this one step out. And I know the moment I start travelling, it will be a turning point in my life. I will not stop travelling. Life's too short to wait. You don't need a few grands to travel. All you need is an explorer heart. One fine day, I will just off my phone, cut off my contacts, free myself from Internets and flyaway. :) This is my life, I will live my passion.


p.s. I don't give a damn about you.

This post is for myself.

Bitch remember, don't ever envy other people when they are good, you'll never know what kind of shit they get when you're not looking.

3 insecure.

It's 10th of may, almost half a year is gone. Time flies. Things/people change. None stays the same. How saddening.

Don't know why i will always feel insecure. Maybe I'm just not confident enough. I feel that we're drifting apart. Seriously, being friend with you can really make me feel like shit, but I can't deny that you can make people feel awesome being with you. So maybe that's why....

Viridian 61. ♥

Ohh great. Today was fine. everyday was fun in school. I have awesome classmates, I love them all! ♥ I just freaking hate the tonnes of assignments. But I think I can sleep early tonight. If I start doing my work right now and not procrastinate!!! hahahas. I freaking love my class lah!!! viridian 61!! ♥

To my bestfriend. 2

As promised, the later part.
I think keeping friendship is mutual. I've done my part and the rest is up to you. And of course, there are changes I see. I hope it will not deteriorate again. :)

Randomness

Just wanna post something. Since I've done my blog skin till so nice. lols. (self praise..)

Ever since poly starts, I've been freaking busy. Some days i can't even have a good sleep. I had fun though.
I shouldn't be blogging right now. I've got freaking lots of assignments to complete.. Hell.. this is inhuman!!! I wanna quit school!!!! i wanna take mc tml!!! i want the aliens to kidnap me!! lols. OK. stop my grumbling and get working.

anyw, for the previous post. there's still part 2. i'll continue next time, if i still feel like to. hahaahs!!
To be continued...
:D Bye folks~!

To my bestfriend.

I bet you'll never see this but I just feel like writing.
You may be very sociable, you may get to know lots of people, gain a lot of friends. Yes, your charisma is freaking high. But you don't know how to cherish the people who cherish you. In your life people come to you easily, then they will walk away from you. Just when you are busy knowing new friends the old ones left. In the end you will realise, none of the people by your side you can call them best friend. I know this is you. I can't change you. Maybe you don't mind. But then if one day I choose to leave, don't do something to make me feel like staying by you again. Cause I know I will stay for the words you say though you don't mean it, and even when you don't cherish me.

Please Note!The URL for this blog will be changed to: yyiinnnggg.blogspot.com/ 30 days later.

Things change, friends leave, life doesn't stop for anybody.

Time changes everything. Even friends leave.
 Keeping friendship is mutual. No matter how hard I try to maintain it, if I'm trying alone, This friendship will still end. Am I a friend worth having? I prompt myself.
 Cause I really feel that I rely a lot on my friends. I need them. But to them it seems like whether I'm there a not nothing matters. I don't like the feelings of being neglected. I know I'm not as selfless, not as humour, not as loyal, not as friendly. This is me. If I'm not a friend worth having, I will try to become one that is. because I love all my friends, i don't wanna lose them.

I'm feeling a little lost recently.

有些關係需要維繫，若不維繫就會失去。 怎樣維繫就看這關係有多重要了。

I'M LOST.

I'm Lost. I chose a pathway which I can't see my future in it. My vision are blurred. I'm unsure of moving forward, continuing this journey. If I choose this path, even if I need to crawl, I must crawl finish. Is there something I can still do?

choices choices choices.. choose choose choose..

releasing of O level result.

hmmm... How long has it been since I last updated my blog? DAMN LONG!!! LOLS! I've got too much things to do.... Excuses! I'm just plain lazy! Hahas! Anyway, time past so fast! O level result will be released tomorrow! OK. I'm very very nervous. Cause I know I will flung badly. I remember very vividly how i did my paper. I ruined it. Will I cry? IDK. Recently I'm quite emotional. My mood just sway over little things. I might have insomnia tonight... But still, Que sera sera. I can never change the fact, you see.